Gosh I hate this feeling when you have to go out and pretend that you feel awesome and that you love everything that's going on around you, that you agree with everything and you FIT into it. You have to go and answer some stupid questions, lie cause if you dare say the truth - turns out nobody gets you or care about you for that matter! I've been there, done that, acted my ass off to be just like everybody else or really try to look like that) Im so grateful that I'm way past this. Those years were the worst((((
My life isn't fabulous still and I don't have that much people who give a shit about me - but it's real ME so .. Im a OK) The moment I stopped acting like somebody I'm not I lost so many "so called friends", who wants to hang with a loser ( that's how they see me now)?
BUT THE IRONY IS-everyone enjoys you being a loser!!!! this always avaliable sort of a wanker, who's ready to take any shit in, who always loses in comparison, people around you feel like they've achived hell of a lot, no matter how meaningless their lives are-some people just can't feel good about themselves, unless there is someone who is so easily humiliated , around them.Thats why when you feel down these people thrive near you, and trust me - they are not in the slightest interested in you getting any better. SO get better-without them!!
I have to meet some of my ex-friends from time to time and I can't help but think WHY have you guys been in my life for so long???????????? You detest everything I love, you disrespect me and laugh at me, you don't enjoy my company but who's there to blame but myself? I shouldn't have deceived you in the first place . No masks in the future please, whatever is there - be honest and show it and you won't have complete strangers in your lives))) I hope I'm gonna find real friends at some point of my life, be happy if I'm blessed))) I sure do want everybody to do just that and not live in the fake world!
xoxoxo A.
My life isn't fabulous still and I don't have that much people who give a shit about me - but it's real ME so .. Im a OK) The moment I stopped acting like somebody I'm not I lost so many "so called friends", who wants to hang with a loser ( that's how they see me now)?
BUT THE IRONY IS-everyone enjoys you being a loser!!!! this always avaliable sort of a wanker, who's ready to take any shit in, who always loses in comparison, people around you feel like they've achived hell of a lot, no matter how meaningless their lives are-some people just can't feel good about themselves, unless there is someone who is so easily humiliated , around them.Thats why when you feel down these people thrive near you, and trust me - they are not in the slightest interested in you getting any better. SO get better-without them!!
I have to meet some of my ex-friends from time to time and I can't help but think WHY have you guys been in my life for so long???????????? You detest everything I love, you disrespect me and laugh at me, you don't enjoy my company but who's there to blame but myself? I shouldn't have deceived you in the first place . No masks in the future please, whatever is there - be honest and show it and you won't have complete strangers in your lives))) I hope I'm gonna find real friends at some point of my life, be happy if I'm blessed))) I sure do want everybody to do just that and not live in the fake world!
xoxoxo A.
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