movie night)

 Yesterday we watched Three Musketeers. I think if you have a good feeling after you've watched the movie, it means that -  that actually was a good movie, quite funny and spectacular in stunts and costumes, all things we love about period films included)))) I was thinking about it for the whole day which doesn't happen very often, as I don't come across good films all the time. Funny I didn't have that much hopes in it, turns out it kinda is the movie one must  watch!!! A.

OMG!!!!!! Lana Del Rey

                 I LOVE THIS GIRL!!!!! 

      Absolutely stunning, perfect voice, sense of style, talent, kinda peligrosa... My mum says she really likes her "Blue jeans" and believe me my mum is really tough when it comes to admitting somebody's talent or beauty, she doesn't like mediocre, and guess what??? mum is always right in predicting whose gonna be  
BIG !!!!!!! High hopes for you girl ,

xoxo M.

Red lips) Vote

 

This is definitely a strong look

Ok, all these girls are gorgeous but I'm curious who's the best red lips girls? Brunettes?

 

Blondes?

 

Red-haired girls? 

 

I love this hair hue!!!!

care for some breakfast?

Some thoughts

    Today I have this strong feeling that I've been looking on things from the Wrong angle, seriously wrong.

  I can't believe how confused I was for so long. I feel like I am getting closer to realizing what I have done wrong and how to act from now on, and this is hard( Old habits die hard, and such nasty habits those are! They f*ed up my life royally and I have to be the different person from this day. I've been thinking about it for 2 years now and considering it, but now I just have this nauseating kick in my gut that I just have to do it!!!I can't go on the way I did letting somebody else take care of things, while I sit in the corner and pretend to be different but in fact never stop seeing things in my own Wrong perspective, blaming people, calling myself a victim...
I know it doesn't make sense for anybody but me, but it's dead simple and dead difficult at the same time.

   Be different, be better, leave some bad stuff behind. Who am I kidding, all of the bad stuff behind ! Living the way I did - It was easier and somehow sadder, it never gave me satisfaction or any nice feeling at all, it got me lonely, vain and depressed, and it made me closed in a shell so deep no one could get through. I just had this mediocre life with no particular partiality or attachment, not giving, but hey letting the ugly attitude live a full life and hurt people around me, the closest especially. Having hopes which made me arrogant, and aggravated - I got mad for not having everything my way. Silly girl, it's time to change, cause I don't have so much time left. This road isn't covered with rose petals, but it doesn't change the fact that this is the only road to follow.

   I have to be persistent and never look back, never. There was nothing right in the past - just mistakes, some necessary but IT'S no longer possible to make them over and over again. It is becoming your character. I hope I can do it, and not quit feeling weak and sorry for myself, we're brave enough to be rude, and proud and even justify ourselves by calling it Strength and Candidness. No longer working for me. The girl gotta do, what the girl gotta do in all the circumstances that surround me, no support from people, painful and scary like a toddler learning to walk , in my case again. Learning is a proper word here, but the fact that I'm learning now and not from the early age is not an accuse, I am grateful that I get it now. Better late than never. Maybe there is still time to get back on track and do things the way I should. Can't replay the time, can't turn it back and change some actions but can surely start doing them now.

  It is a bit messy but I guess you guys feel it too, or felt that at some point of your life...xoxo A.

wish to be there and don't at the same time

Thanks bloggers

   Hi to all bloggers,

   I am getting so much inspiration from reading the blogs!!!

   Thank ya all for giving me hope, good mood, a chance to laugh and smile)) You don't know that, or don't care, but some people out there actually get some help from your posts so I thank you for doing that for me as well. I guess it's not a big deal, but I never thought it would be so interesting and that I will learn something from the experience)

  See, there are millions of beautiful people out here, talented, funny, smart, brave, they aren't scared to put their thoughts in words and share them with the world! They talk about life and reveal more than many people I speak to in my real life, they are amazing, they live in the countries I've never been to and would probably never visit.((( And I am just this little person who admire all these ordinary people, can actually relate to them. Feels a bit weird cause I never was a fan of the Internet, I thought the whole idea was pretty sad and alien - no honesty, fake identities, bragging and only perves benefiting from it. Now I am changing my mind on this))). Truly. I owe this to you).


 You don't know me, would never hear of me, but you made one Russian lonely girl feel.

Our sleeping beauties)))

My wistful Sunday

     Heya,

    The pouring rain hasn't literally stopped for a minute today!!!AARGH.  All plans for Sunday utterly ruined( Instead of having a great and quite a busy day I had to stay at home and stuff my face((( Not making myself proud, but this weather is making me go nuts! I don't like to leave the premises cause my hair lives it's own crazy life, can't be trimmed anyhow (only by applying loads of spray! but that's extremely bad for my curls), thrives on any drizzlings from the sky, which we here have for like 8 months straight! I am a bit of a whiner I guess but I feel like a proper miserable cow- cold, covered in dirt from these huge puddles, with mess on my head where the hair has to be...Also I received a bit upsetting news from my work( no Big deal, but still made me feel distressed).

   Actually, I gotta conclude, it is better not to make any plans for your future, cause all of them go awry). I'm being honest, I could never in my life comprehend people who wished for something deeply, visualized things, planned stuff and got it all right as planned! I don't know what that is (some supernatural powers?), but as soon as I make a proper schedule, rely on something or somebody, get attached and comfy about my nearest future , it gets all messy and hectic and exactly the opposite of what I hoped for. The little things are not that much disturbing I think, but when the bigger picture falls apart I start to think that I am supposed to be unreasonable, spontaneous, unpredictable, out of order and luck girl, who never gets it right. 

   That's it. Deal with it.

   And of course it has nothing to do with my hair as you've  probably realized.

Hope your weekend was on the contrary light, and eventful . xoxo A.

my grandma can cook all of it, probably everybodies can!

old school Russian food)

more food coming)))

our food

that's a cute manicure))))))

the day in the farm)))

my lively morning)

  Hey,

  It's getting cold so fast out here! The slippery slope really, you wanna sleep more, stay in more, eat more comfy food, the bed tells you that it's so dreadful out there you shouldn't get out of it , ever. I envy Australians big time)))))))))

 And I'm posting this in my pijamas, with a huge cup of tea and a Big muffin. shame)))

And guess what, I'm eating the muffin, nearly purring with pleasure and my sis walks by and asks if I want to have a muffin top?

Mean))))))

THAT day

Had a brilliant day, somewhat slow, somewhat BIG))!!!!!! hope everyone has a brilliant evening

xoxo M.